A Conversation with myself!
Another sleepless night so I let my thoughts wander. Objective less article, read at your own peril.
Why do we suffer? In the hope that we get to lead better days without suffering. Is there proof that suffering has led to better days aka success? Yes, there are examples of people succeeding after suffering a lot in their lives. Are you and those people the same? No, we are different and we follow different paths. Then why do you believe that suffering will help you succeed? It’s more of a hope than belief. Okay, what is hope? A hope is a positive manifestation of my thoughts. Good, why do you hope that suffering leads to success or why don’t you look for simpler ways to succeed? Why should you suffer in the first place? It’s how I was brought up. I got to work for things to happen and more often than not the work is not always easy which can become a suffering. In the end, there’s a success that is expected to be worth my suffering. Alright, does having hope help you in suffering? Yes, it does. I believe that I’ll get better soon. It’s the reaffirmation that is required for me to keep going forward. Ever thought about the negative outcome of your suffering? Sometimes, it’s dark and disturbing as to what if I don’t make it. So, what if you don’t make it? Honestly, I don’t know. I get out of my bed everyday with that one belief that I’ll make it. Shouldn’t you have a plan B if you can’t make it? Yes, I should but I don’t want to. I have been working on this for several years now and if I fail and settle for something lesser, it means I have failed and I don’t want to be one. So what if you fail? Big deal? Yes, a big deal. I don’t want to be a failure. Why do you fear failure? 'cause as much as motivation a failure can be, I dread failing as to what it would be to me, to those people who believe in me and for all the work that I have put in, unimaginable. So you fear failure because you fear your work is of no good if it fails? Yes, absolutely. Isn’t experience a worthy lesson to carry forward for the future? Could be. Experiences are good but I’d rather have it without having to face a failure. So you want the experiences easy? Sort of yea. But, isn’t that the opposite of sufferings that you are going through to get to the place you are trying to reach? Arguably, yea. So, you see how that’s contradicting right? Yes.
Okay good night!
