๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฉ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜† ๐—ฆ๐—ต๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐—ฆ๐˜๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐˜†: ๐—š๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฆ๐—ฎ๐—บ

James Carnival
2 min readNov 28, 2023

Sam had fallen into the state of numbness. He tried to come to peace with the loss but he further sunk into the abyss. He kept reminiscing about how he used to caress and take care, reliving all the joy he once had. They were all unforgettable. The pain now has become insufferable. He's now obsessed with it.

He didn't believe when it happened, he thought he would still be able to save. He was angry with himself when it happened. He had been careless and lethargic that led to this. Even then, he tried to salvage whatever was left. He looked for umpteen ways to bring back the one thing that mattered the most. After failing, Sam fell into depression. He hasn't hit the gym for over a week now, the one place he sanctimoniously worships, the one thing that has saved him a year back from having a full breakdown.

After enduring, he reached the stage of numbness where nothing mattered anymore. He felt no pain, no emotionโ€”completely absent in his social life. Sam had finally reached the 5th stage of grief, the acceptance after suffering over the 4 stages with immense pain.

His friends tried to divert him over the loss. They arranged for gatherings and trips. He did attend them all. But, he was still moody and sad, it was all futile. Sam's parents and brothers made efforts to console him, but their words weren't of any use. To any outsider, it felt like Sam was exaggerating his pain but only Sam knew the loss was huge.

Sam couldn't look into his mirror anymore. He was ashamed. As he was about to leave for the office, he looked for the comb only to realise he had no hair left. He had gone bald. Sam left the house with teary eyes.

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